It is my last day at work in Thalheim. Again I am shrouded with a sense of confusion.. Part of me is happy to go home, yet another half of me is feeling sad at the same time..
Malaysia has always been home for me, and always will be. I have live close to 29 years of my life in Malaysia, and nothing and no other place on earth would change the fact that Malaysia is my homeland.. Malaysia would be perfect if only it has the weather just like what Germany has, and little less circus in the political scene..
Exposure of life in Germany have somehow changed my perception towards life... It is very much different when you're on a holiday, touring over Europe; compared to the fact that you have to learn to adapt and live life in a foreign land. The second deployment to Germany translates to the fact that I have been adapting and living life here for close to 5 months.. One of the best and also the worst 5 months of life.. Best for many, many reasons; worst because I don't really enjoy the food here... :D
In a nutshell, I guess my emotional state of feeling a little sad is just for the fact that I would be leaving behind a country rich with heritage and history. A country which was almost completely destroyed back during the World War 2, somehow managing to turn the leaf around and be one of the greatest powerhouse of technological advancement.
Sad because I would be leaving behind colleagues who have been great mentors, good friends and also the pillar of my knowledge on my quest of learning as much as I can in this new field. I feel even worse knowing the fact that uncertainties are clouding over the future of many, many friends here who I am leaving behind.. The current global economic crisis is just being a bitch in life, unwanted, and certainly not appreciated..
I pray for the best of everyone here.. We will grow together, and we will definitely make it through the bad times.. Things are not looking great as well in Malaysia, knowing the fact that manufacturing industry in Malaysis have hit rock bottom in recent months.. Everyone is in the same boat, and I know how it feels.... Uncertainties... :/
To those German colleagues who have been reading my blog (I know my mentor Steve does), I would just like to shout out another big THANK YOU to everyone, for making me feel welcomed, making me feel belong, and making me feel as one. :)
And to all friends, families and loved ones in Malaysia, I will be back... Also, keep an eye for another update of my adventure in Amsterdam... Till then, take care, and I will cling on to whatever feelings, good ones hopefully, for the rest of the hours remaining in Germany.... It is 1.15pm here, I have 45 more minutes to go before I bid farewell to Line 5 and 6... I shall leave with only good memories with me.. ;)
Stay strong and focused.
ReplyDelete